not sure if I understand these emotion things…
here are some more…
And the obsession continues…
“Yesterday”- Atmosphere
I thought I saw you yesterday
But I didn’t stop, ‘cause you was walkin’ the opposite way
I guess I could’ve shouted out your name
But even if it was you, I don’t know what I would say
We could sit and reminisce about the old school
Maybe share a cigarette, because we both fools
Chop it up and compare perspectives
Life, love, stress and set-backs, yes
So you could tell me how hard you had it
And you could show me all the scars to back it
And we could analyze each complaint
Break it down and explain these mistakes I make
I like to tangle up the strings of the puppetry
But you knew me back when I was a younger me
You seen Sean in all types of light
And I’ve been meanin’ to ask you if I’m doin’ alright
[Chorus x2]
Yesterday
Was that you? Looked just like you
Strange thangs my imagination might do
Take a breath, reflect on what we been through
Or am I just goin’ crazy ‘cause I miss you?
I’m shook, I know, I pushed when I should’ve pulled
Took it all back if I could, I put that on my soul
And I would make a top-notch good listener
If you could block-off a little time out to give it here
Since we went our separate paths
I’ve hit a couple snags that remind me of the past
I can’t front, I’m havin’ a blast
But damned if I ain’t afraid of how long it’s gonna last
Sittin’ here wishin’ we could kick it
Give me your opinions, I do miss the criticisms
I didn’t mean to be distant, make a visit
I’ll wait up and keep the coffee brewin’ in the kitchen
But who am I jokin’ with?
There’s no way that you and I will ever get to re-open it
It doesn’t matter, this is more than love
And maybe if I’m lucky, get to see you out the corner of
Yesterday
Was that you? Looked just like you
Strange thangs my imagination might do
Take a breath, reflect on what we been through
Or am I just goin’ crazy ‘cause I miss you?
And when you left, I didn’t see it comin’
I guess I slept, it ain’t like you was runnin’
You crept out the front door slow
And I was so self-absorbed I didn’t even know
And by the time I looked up it was booked up
Put it all behind you, the bad and the good stuff
A whole house full of dreams and steps
I think you’d be impressed with the pieces I kept
You disappeared but the history is still here
It’s why I try not to cry over spilt beer
I can’t even get mad that you’re gone
Leavin’ me was probably the best thing you ever taught me
I’m sorry, it’s official
I was a fist-full, I didn’t keep it simple
Chip on the shoulder, anger in my veins
Had so much hatred, now it brings me shame
Never thought about the world without you
And I promise that I’ll never say another bad word about you
I thought I saw you yesterday
But I knew it wasn’t you, ‘cause you passed away, dad
Looked just like you
Strange thangs my imagination might do
Take a breath, reflect on what we been through
Or am I just goin’ crazy ‘cause I miss you?
—————> Honestly this song is relatable no matter what your situation. Whether or not you have lost a love one to death or they have just left your life for one reason or another, everyone knows how it feels when you miss them. You feel like you see them everywhere, in your dreams, when you wake up, and sometimes even in the faces of complete strangers. This song just gets me thinking… enjoy.
<3SKH
Candy
I wish I had gotten the chance to see the Savage Beauty exhibit last August at the MET… Alexander McQueen *swoon*
Sometimes we are forced to make a choice between two things. The uncertainty of possibly making the wrong decision is the reason people have a hard time just picking one. The truth is most of the time we know the right choice and our mind is already made up but we let that fear and doubt run rampant in our brains. Remember you are in control of your destiny so manifest and prosper. I think Marilyn Manson said it best “A lot of people don’t want to make their own decisions. They’re too scared. It’s much easier to be told what to do.” So the next time you are forced to choose don’t be afraid to just go with your gut and make a decision and I think you will be surprised by the outcome.
Food for thought: Change
I remember being a kid and wishing that I was a grown up. I wanted to wear the pretty dresses and put on makeup. I thought being grown up just meant you were old enough to make all the rules and do whatever your heart desired… oh how wrong I was. My life has not been easy by any means but I know that there is always someone out there who has had it rougher and please I am not trying to compare or contrast or one-up anyone. I am a product of sexual abuse and domestic violence which turned into a life of drugs and partying. Although I have made many stupid decisions in my life I would not change them for anything because they have brought me to this point and shaped me for the decisions I will make in the future. After hitting low points in my life which I can only refer to as “rock bottom” for lack of a better word, I decided that my life was worth more and I owe it to myself to change my situation. Now to the point of this post…
François de la Rochefoucauld once said that “The only thing constant in life is change”. Human beings are constantly evolving and progressing as they live their lives and experience different things. Another popular quotation by Charles R. Swindoll, a famous American pastor, is “Life is 10% what happens to you and 90% how you react to it”. So I guess the question I am trying to get at is why is everyone so stuck?
If we are constantly growing and changing why are we still in the same situations? I feel like everyone is stuck in one way or another when really the answer is so simple. Instead of feeling comfortable put yourself in situations that make you feel reckless even if it is only mildly. Embrace the change, and learn from your mistakes. Grow and develop and take your experiences and thrive. The definition of insanity is repeating the same behavior expecting different results. So if you are not happy in the situations you are in CHANGE them. Instead of complaining about them and not doing anything be proactive in your own life. Instead of repeating that 10% of events over and over again and reacting the same way 90% of your life and finally take the driver’s seat for once. Don’t like your boyfriend? Change it. Don’t like your grades? Change them. Don’t like your fiscal situation? Do something about it. We as humans are so afraid of change that we believe that being comfortable and content is more important but the truth is it’s not. The only thing you are accomplishing with remaining comfortable is stagnation and settling. Sure it’s a whole hell of a lot easier taking the road well-traveled but the last time I checked that road doesn’t lead to Everest… think about it.
SKH<3
Nocturnal Princess
